Who I am (OCP Blog Challenge #1)

I have decided that it is time I do the 2 challenges that i missed, starting with the first one.

Who are you TODAY! Who you are a home, in Christ, and who you would like to become in the next year.

To tell you the truth, I'm not really sure who I REALLY am right now. I know I am a mother of 3, a wife and a mediocre Christian. I try to do my absolute best in everything I do, but lately it seems that my best just isnt good enough (at least in my head). I know I can do more, I know I can do better. I have been struggling with this for some time now. I used to look back at my past and that is NOT who I am, that's for sure. All I seemed to remember in my past is what I'd done wrong but I have moved passed that. We can't change what happened in the past, we can just move forward and better ourselves. I keep wondering "what is my purpose?" and I think I can give you one thing. Part of my purpose is to raise our children in a good, solid Christian home. Now, before I go off topic (unless I already have), on to the next part.

Who am I in Christ? This is something I have been struggling with as well. I call myself a Christian, though not a very good one (I think I used mediocre before). I mean, I pray occasionally, I read my Bible sometimes, I go to church most Sundays and I attend Bible Study (haven't missed one yet). The only thing I believe is missing is that close and personal relationship with Christ. Which I believe I need to have in order to be a great wife, a great mother and a great (not mediocre) Christian.

Who would I like to become in the next year? Well, that is something I can answer fairly easily.

At home: I want to focus on my relationship with my family. I mean, it's good now but can definately improve. I want to improve as a wife, as a mother and as a "maid". I want to be someone my family can be proud of, and someone my children want to be like when they grow up. I want to be someone that I can be proud of. I would also like to work on building up my self-esteem.

In Christ: I want to acheive (if that's the right word) that close and personal relationship with Him. I want to learn how to pray throughout the day (about anything). I would like to go from a mediocre Christian to at least a good one.

Thank you for taking the time to read this. I hope this has helped you to know me a bit better.

Until next time

Yours in Christ,
Jackie